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the end

of something is always the beginning of something else.

if you had to give advice to an alien or someone new to earth, what would it be? i like thinking about this.

day two, no sleep

in bed with original japanese godzilla

particles floating in space

I thought if I wrote about it I'd end up jinxing myself... BUT what's life without caring and actually becoming excited over something even if there is high possibility of a let down?

I started playing music again after a two and a half year break. Chris Newcomer has been teaching me songs for his band over the last month. I must admit, I absolutely love it. Re-learning bass is challenging and hard but fun and sometimes a breeze all together. If they decide they don't want me, oh well.
At least I am having the coolest time ever filling the air with color in sound.

but that night

the earth was rolling over in it's sleep and the stars were all out shooting.

how to become numb.

the process of recognition

Squandering a great and hard won victory through decadence and laziness. Failing to reward those truly responsible for an achievement. Using past accomplishments as an excuse to ignore current problems. Abandoning the very qualities that brought about initial success.

Chagrin at the unforeseen consequences of prior decisions. Criticism, censure, and the imposition of external restrictions. Confusion leading to powerlessness. Inability to focus on the crux of a problem and become free of a difficult situation.

Being hamstrung by a past failure or humiliation.

Desiring contentment and satisfaction in romance, friendship, or other relationships. Achieving deepest desires, savoring beauty and sensual pleasures. A state of joy and abundance radiating fulfillment and bliss.

Admitting defeat. Refusing to achieve success through personal degradation. Friendship maintained through the abandonment of a dishonorable gain. Slander and infamy avoided.

I may have been shutting everyone and everything out until recently. It made sense before but I was wrong. In a way it had to happen, because if it didn't I wouldn't understand what I'm learning now.
You can't waste your entire life placing the blame on others and feeling frustrated with the world. One day you have to realize that the problem might be you.

found

inside a purse
my closet, california

will you go to heaven? it is the 'million dollar question.'

i can't remember if i was given this as a joke or if someone slipped it in my bag attempting to save me.

buffalo stance

sitting with jason harlan + neneh cherry at a very weird bar that
feels like the inside of a small closet...

?!??!?!!!

broken

before

after

It doesn't look as bad as it was or felt. I am pretty much healed up now, though.

...

How do people listen to this shit? I hate it.
It sounds like a fucking mouse is singing.
Seriously, stop laughing... you're missing Stuart Little.

-Nikolaus Jung on Coldplay

greetings

from my new laptop!
I'm not the type to sit on photo booth all day but I wanted to preserve last night after Jolette's birthday party. After world's collided. After I became intertwined with my past life and future simultaneously.

We are all a super-network of people separated by 6 degrees and probably even less if you live in Los Angeles. It isn't just knowing of each other either... we've all connected or loved or hated or spied or researched or dreamt about or analyzed or worked with or played with or laughed with or fought with or slept with or hung out with or just passed the time together.
We are just passing the time together. We're rolling over and on top of ourselves on top of ourselves on top of ourselves on top of ourselves.

We're intrigued.

found

Vermont Avenue
Los Feliz, California



qualified shit

licking my teeth

oral fixation

room 8

was a neighborhood cat who wandered into the same numbered classroom at Elysian Heights Elementary School in Echo Park, California. He lived inside the building during the school year and would disappear in summer, returning once classes had started again.

News cameras arrived at the beginning of each year awaiting the cat's return. Eventually becoming quite popular, Room 8 often received 100 letters a day personally addressed to him. The cat was featured in a documentary, children's book, many magazine articles, and even had an instrumental song written in his honor.

As he got older, he was injured in a cat fight and suffered from pneumonia, so a family who lived nearby volunteered to take him in. The school's janitor would find him at the end of each day and carry him across the street.

His obituary in the Los Angeles Times rivaled that of major political figures, running three columns along a photograph. The cat was so famous that the obituary ran in newspapers as far away as Hartford, Connecticut.
The students raised funds for his gravestone.

Elysian Heights Elementary has a wall mural on the outside of the school which features Room 8. The teachers read his book to each new class.

tonight's menu:

ellierex: part of me wants to get a bottle on the way home, build a blanket fort in my room, and then drink the bottle- inside the fort, and pass out.
ellierex: it is a pretty elaborate plan
pixi334: that sounds like an amazing plan!
ellierex: or very self destructive
ellierex: another part of me wants to eat the best thai food ever with you guys
ellierex: and then throw up when you pull that lovey dovey stuff
pixi334: we do not pull that stuff

found

Valentine Street
Echo Park, California

Reverse:

I would take that as a no.

at propagandhi

Sean Carlson: So you guys are on the list... and Brian I'll give you drink tickets if you grab some cd's from your car that I can play in between bands.
Brian Steinhoff: I don't have my car... Danielle drove.
Sean Carlson: Do you have cd's in your car I can borrow?
Danielle Garza: Umm, yeah I have a lot of them. What do you need?
Sean Carlson: Just whatever. Anything.
Brian Steinhoff: Can you imagine when fucking MINERAL comes on at this show?